hills & valleys

*June 29, 2018 “For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.” - Isaiah 55:9 NLT This verse has been on my mind a lot lately. I don’t think I fully understood the meaning behind it when I read it years ago. I just thought, God is powerful, ok. What I didn’t realize is how this verse and the ones following it are much more thought provoking and powerful than I had originally thought.  We often try to rationalize things in life. When hardships come our way, much too often we pray for God to take it away or fix it, and if he doesn’t, we get angry with him. Or, there’s the other end of the spectrum, when something bad happens to someone they may just throw their hands up in the air in defeat, and not even ask God to help or for healing in the situation, because they think that it’s not possible. But let me tell you this… Both of these scenarios (and I have experienced both), are perfect exampl...

*June 17, 2018 Humble yourselves before the Lord, and He will lift you up.- James 4:10 I’ve been sitting here, trying to think of a way to describe my last couple of months, and even the last year in general that sums everything up. But how do you sum up moving to a new place, meeting tons of new people, being healed and in remission from chronic disease, new jobs, new paths, and ultimately a fresh start.  The word that keeps coming to me is “humbled”.  The Lord has taught me  a lot   over the past year. My spiritual life has taken on a new realm over the last twelve months and it all started when I moved to Peterborough. Which only confirms with me even more that God has been orchestrating every step of this journey. A little over a year ago, my friend and I had prayed and asked God to guide us in the decision of moving in together. We asked that if this was what he wanted for us, that he would provide us with a place we could afford, in a safe neigh...

*April 19, 2018 As I sit here on my bed, sipping on homemade iced coffee, enjoying a slow morning at home, I’m struck by how different my life is now than it was just one short year ago. I have never been this peaceful in all my life. The funny thing is, all of the things that I thought I needed to be happy or content, I really don’t need at all. I am whole and I am joyful. I used to think that in order to be truly happy I needed to have all the things I desired. Things like a job I loved, an instagram-worthy husband, a perfect body, steady finances, a savings account, children of my own, and all the little things that make up a so-called “perfect” life. And then my life came crashing down around me, and all of things I was striving for, desperate to have for my own taking, made me feel utterly worthless. I felt like a failure. Because instead of living a picture perfect life with the hip husband, the cute kids, and the cool job I was teetering on the edge of completely letti...